The first thing good about this picnic was, I was the part of the organizing committee, and I was among the committee which organized games. This was the first time I was a part of organizing any event. And it went all well… But that’s not the only thing I want to tell.
Today, at the picnic, there were around 70 to 80 people attending, that included the company employees, their spouses and kids and a few management people from our US and France offices. In front of such a big crowd, I performed a mimicry item…. and also won a prize for it. A performance infront of 80 people – was something I thought was impossible with me a few years back, happened today. Being in the organizing committee I had shown my willingness to perform a mimicry item. This may be the result of the feel-good factor the acceptance gave me lately. It could also be because of my constant urge to push myself out of my shell, to fight my long standing battle. But when the comperer announced my item, I was not scared, but was a bit apprehensive. I held the microphone in the hand, and faced the crowd. A stage fright is something which i always had. And today I was facing my fear for the first time. There were round about 80 pairs of eyes – that makes it around 160 eyes looking at me. But yet I got started. I could hear my own words echo from the microphone. The stammering came… But I could manage it. For the audience, it didnt looked like stammering. I performed mimicry of 5 bollywood actors, and also had to do a bit of talking in between. And when the item was over, the sound of applause was the best sound I had ever heard in all these years.
Later I got a prize for my item, and it felt really great – to win a prize for a mimicry (related to speech) , being a part of a battle called stammering (also related to speech).
The praises from my bosses from US and Goa office, that they never knew I had this talent, and that it was a great performance, only added to my happiness. This was one talent I had which I always wanted to show right from my college days, but didn’t. Because I had locked myself in a cage.
I just want to pass a message… It is indeed very true that, if you fear something, then you need to face your fear. When you do it, you come to know that what you fear for was actually – “NOTHING”.