stammer is who can hide his stammer very well by easy replacing words and by with some
other techniques(coughing, i just forgot hmmm..) . But at sometime, all of his techniques failed and he caught
red handed. And this is most embarrassing movement for him. Since childhood, I also
hide my stammering from everyone as possible I can do. Even my family members don’t
know about this (as I think, except my mom). But sometime when I stuck badly in
some situations, I found myself helpless. I shocked badly like as by electric
current and my memory erased. I don’t realize where I am standing and on what
content I was talking? This was my previous life around one year ago. I seemed
happy to people and they thought I am a good listener with shy personality. There
was big difference in my inner and outer thoughts. I was completely a different
person in my inner. I always fight with my own words. This word is right, this
is wrong. There was never a peace inside myself. I always tried not to stutter
at any cost. Being “covert” is
- Having excessive fear of being perceived by others to have a
difference in the way they speak
- Constantly fearing their “stuttering secret” being
- Feeling guilty for making the listener feel uncomfortable because
of their stuttering
- Denying stuttering or the need to work on it
- Feeling shame, devaluating oneself, or fostering the need to hide
inner and few in outer.
- Now I can talk on stammering to anyone freely. I enjoy talking
on stammering although fluents doesn’t want to talk more on it.
- I dosn’t feel so
much fear or shame after blockages (although there is more work to do).
- I reduced
switching words in fearing situations.
- And most important which I got, the
inner struggle with words goes down and a peace in inside.
friends of mine tell me that you start to stammer more after attending workshop. How I tell
them that my inner struggle goes down which reflects in my outer. Sometime I stutter
more and what others can do in it?? I have born to stutter; sometimes I win, sometimes
my stutter. Just a matter of time.