Beyond (Dis)Fluency!!

As your perspective changes, so does your reality and the challenges existing in that reality. As a young boy who had a lot of negative labels attached to him, the biggest and most important hurdle in life seemed to be my STAMMERING! I kept on deferring living until I was FLUENT! After all no good is man who can’t even speak his name properly, was what I used to think. The day I will become 100% FLUENT, I will do this and that. So I always had dreams that I will achieve in next six months or a year, when I will be fluent and the time just flew by and I kept on extending the deadlines when I will start living! Looks like madness to me right now but yes that was the reality at one point in time.

And here I am today still stuttering, left a well (actually decently 😉 paid job, trying to start my own company. Learning everything from scratch – socialising skills, technical skills, marketing skills, leadership skills, “having fun” skills and a lot more! You may be interested in knowing what has changed now ? What “technique” did I use – bouncing or prolongation ? Which therapy did try ? None of that has brought this long lasting change that I enjoy now, and to be honest actually nothing has changed EXCEPT MY ATTITUDE towards my own self!

Now I have a deep level of acceptance towards myself a human being who is imperfect! I will try to write a series of posts after this one, about acceptance. How did it translate from a concept to a feeling ? What were the things that forced me to take this route. I believe I owe it to a lot of young people out there!

P.S – The above post may give you an impression that I have completed transcended to a new state but I feel my body still carries a lot of pain which I hope will only go away only with time! Another thing I would to mention is that I still go back to my old patterns once in a while but the frequency is decreasing! and I am FINE with both of these! 🙂

Post Author: Harish Usgaonker

7 thoughts on “Beyond (Dis)Fluency!!


    (May 14, 2011 - 12:35 pm)

    Aa ha! Something is finally coming out of this Microwave oven! Let it keep coming..


    (May 14, 2011 - 3:50 pm)


    I have been observing this person since I have started my association with TISA. I came across him as a volunteer in Dehradun on a sabbatical of 6 months… I watched his videos, wherein he said he stayed hungry for a day because he was scared he wud get stuck on 'Roti'. In another video, on being asked how stammering has benefited, he replied that Stammering has not benefited him at all…

    Then he began posting about lack of motivation after acceptance…

    …and gradually, as I read his posts, I could see the change in his ATTITUDE… the thing that he has mentioned in this post….

    I spent quite some time with JP- in Pune, and then in Goa… I asked him this question again- Has stammering benefited you- And this time his answer was – "Yes.. A lot!!". Thats the change in Attitude!

    JP! Waiting eagerly to read your series of posts…. 🙂

    rahul raut dessai

    (May 14, 2011 - 4:24 pm)

    JP…….you rock……….you are an inspiration for young PWS like me….:)


    (May 14, 2011 - 5:35 pm)

    Great to see Mr.JP you opening your pen to write your true yourself !!!

    Keep going. It seems a great personality in the making !

    Waiting for your series of posts and it will be really great I can foretell.

    Vaibhav Talegaonkar

    (May 17, 2011 - 1:54 am)


    You always inspire me.I remember when we met 8 months before at pune i thought you are like other stammerers who are struggling with life.
    But when we interacted many times i found that you have all the qualities to make Idol for PWS community.

    Wish you all the Best for your grt future.


    (May 17, 2011 - 6:58 am)

    Thanks everyone!!


    (May 21, 2011 - 10:25 am)

    Good article. Waiting for the next.

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