Now lets get back to the topic of this post – Pseudo Recovery. I have experienced it and have very recently started coming out of it.And from talking to many members in TISA, it seems quite common and many feel confused and depressed about the whole experience. Before I write more and more to compensate for not writing for a long time on TISA blog, let me explain the phenomenon. Pseudo Recovery – As the name suggests, its recovery from stuttering mindset that is not a “TRUE” recovery but looks like one on the surface. It happens when there are a lot of changes at the intellectual level of the person but the emotional level has not been able to keep pace. So while you can talk about acceptance and ways to implement it nonstop for 10 hours; how stammerers can transform their life if they follow these steps – A, B & C; may have conducted many workshops for pws; emotionally you still feel broken. This sometimes also happen due to a fiction that get created through your blog posts where you talk about many ideals that you may heard about or read somewhere and have been repeating them in your head (probably because you read about NLP or positive reinforcement) but not really experiencing them. People leave good comments and start looking up to you as a recovered stammerer. Now this contradiction between the mind and the emotion can lead to same problems as before and hence many may see it as being stuck in life.
If it happens to you, trust me its a normal step in recovery for many people. Changes always start at the surface and then penetrate inwards. Due to a thick hide that we may have developed over the years, these inner changes may sometimes take longer than we expect. All you need to do is try to become more familiar with your emotions and where they come from. And you will be surprised to know that most of your emotions have no link with the present reality but they are just old conditioned emotions that keep coming back and we take the familiarity for their trueness. I have been able to get out of that phase due to listening to Eckhart Tolle and trying to start my own venture.Have you experienced something similar where people label you as recovered but you don’t feel like one but are afraid to acknowledge it because it makes you feel like a “loser” just as stammering (sometimes) does ? How did you cope with it ?
P.S. -BTW to me it appears that if I change the heading to the above post to “Pseudo Self” it may be applicable to general human population and it all leads from being identified with your thoughts. What if we could see our thoughts/emotions as just passing thoughts/emotions and not derive a sense of self from them and not believe in each of our thoughts. Or as someone said – Don’t take your thoughts/mind too seriously 🙂