fighting with. Yes an almost regular fight it was..!!
Article after article, I went through each one of them. With each passing
piece of experience that I read, I could find a bit of me explained, a bit of
me explored, a bit of me accepted. I felt happy.
When I read articles that described what school is for a PWS, I had moist eyes.
School is the toughest battleground for a PWS, as it was for me. You have to
stand for a thing that is happening to you. You have make others accept it, when
the ground reality is that you yourself are totally unaware of this alien
I am one of those people who find it better to cut off from
conversations that have the words school, friends, enjoyment and the likes. I
have nothing happy to share about them since all I remember about those utterly
stressful days is the fear— that I could be made to read the text book in the
next class, the embarrassment— that not answering the roll call could cause
me, the thirst for water that I will have to bear since it would impossible for
me to seek permission from the teacher to drink water, and a lot others that
almost all of you are aware of.
for now in a day I had to face at least 5-6 of them.
But something unexpected
happened during this phase.
accepted myself whole-heartedly.
that ruptured the cocoon and caused my emergence as an individual.
about the fact that I stammer. Today I don’t even clearly remember the storyline,
but the effect that the movie caused, is clear as crystal.
have the tool to do so.
saw me doing this and wished to know what caused me so much grief. I made her
read all that. She was touched and motivated me to keep going.
writing my heart out till eternity.
this made me weak, yet again. But I managed to recollect after each rejection
that I faced and I will continue to until I reach the pinnacle of success.
you, makes you stronger”
time, but it is stammering that has made me the person that I am, and I am
proud to be myself.
On the contrary, at times I find, being a strammerer “something cool”
and worth flaunting 😉
“The King’s Speech”), Rowan Atkinson (Ref. Mr. Bean), Hrithik Roshan,
and other “n” number of people who stammered, all of them went beyond the self
and the socially imposed inhibition. With all the dedication and efforts they
were able to shed the burden that came along with all the
inhibitions and stammering, carved a niche for themselves, which brought them success, respect
and most of all satisfaction. If they could do it, so can I, so can you.
and will remain so…but I am happy about the fact that I am a person confident
enough to face myself and stammering.
make people understand. I feel accepted. Now that I have found TISA….aka
HOPE….I realize that had I been associated with it a few years back…I would
have had a different life with respect to a certain things. But as they say, better
late than never, I feel blessed to be here.
TISA motivates me to find the school girl back, who lost the joy of her school
days for the lack of awareness.
TISA inspires me to appreciate the person that I am.
pinnacle still waits to be annexed.