stammering cure things. And got many videos and document. And some were saying slow
speech and some suggested breathing exercises. But at that time I just saw
those things very carelessly and not an eye on that. And at the same time I
want to cure in a night. I was searching for a job and giving interviews. And I
know things but on telephonic rounds I always kicked off. I was in frustration
and execrate myself.
stammering cure. Suddenly my eye rolled on that “t-tisa.blogspot.com”.
I clicked on that
and saw “The Indian stammering association”. At the same time I thought this
could be the same stammering cure centers that are making money rather than
help. Because I called 2 centers in
Bangalore and they were saying we can cure in 21 days. And when I asked for
fees, really I fainted that guy said 15k.
the TISA page. I saw “meeting place at madiwala” and below Dinesh mobile no.
was there. I thought that I have to call this guy also and ask him what is the
procedure to join? Because I am in frustration and not thinking of money any
more. I was thinking “whatever fees there I will pay”. I called Dinesh, my
hands was shaking. I remember the whole conversation, maybe I forgot some words,
conversation with Dinesh on phone below,
haa hallo I am ta ta ta talking to Dinesh.
your no. from stammering blog.
I though “ what he is thinking about me”.( In stress and I still remember my
ears were burning).
po po procedure to join and Fees!!!!!
self help group there is no procedure and no fees. Just you have to come and
coming Saturday 2pm to 5pm at madiwala. When you come there just give me a
and called my mom. Hey mummy “ maine ek stammering cure ki class dhondi hai aur
waha Saturday se jaunga”. My mom was also happy.
around 2.30pm because I was in dilemma I have to go or not what will happen?
That’s why I am getting late. And many questions were striking on my mind. After
I reached to the center and called Diensh “Hi Dinesh I am Akash, I am here at
madiwala”. Before calling to Dinesh I turned face to my house but then I
thought “jo hoga dekh lenge”.
in the hot sun. Abhinav came and said.. “ Hey your Akash right?”. I called him
Abhishek at the first time. And we chitchatting and he said “ I am not Abhishek
yaar I am Abhinav”.
room. And what I saw ooo man there are too many guys and I got little nervous.
Some conversation was going on “marriage topic”. Sairam said “Hey come sit
here”. I thought he is the teacher because he asked too many questions to me
“where are you from? What u do? , where do u leave?, In which company you are
in?”. I was thinking “ he is checking me, how much stammer I have, then he will
teach me something or give me some exercises”. I answered all. End of the day I was thinking
“ hey they didn’t teach anything just they were talking”. Then I think there is
no need to go yaar. And I didn’t go for at least 3-4 weeks.
Dinesh pinged me
“Hey Akash why are you not coming to SHG”.
I was thinking what I have to say or just logout from the gmail or didn’t
answer him. But another thought came if some buddy doing same thing with me
then. How do I feel? Then I answer him truth fully that I was very nervous and
motivates me and around 15mins we talked and give me some inspiration. And he
said “ okay do one thing come for only 3 months regularly and I am sure you
will see the changes”. I said “ okay I will come”.
he said “ Akash you have to give speech at least one speech”. Then I gave
speech on “Food” and I know very well it was not a good speech and I forgot
many things. But all the PWS clapped and said your speech is good and you have
to give more speeches.
Dinesh told me “Akash do u want to write a report on TISA blog”
I am thinking how can I write a report.
Then Dinesh motivates me “ See Akash if
you not communicate with you vocal it’s okay but if you’re not write well then
it’s a fault”.
I said “my writing skills are not good”. He said “that does why I told you, u
have to write a report. You just write and write for 5-6 months automatically
it will improve”.
story “When I written first time that was not good but I was writing continuously
for 6 months. And now I am able to write good one”.
thanks him. He really pushes me and motivates me. If he didn’t push, I may not
be the part of SHG.
are coming and going but 5-6 pws are always coming to SHG and I can say that
those are pillars of Bangalore SHG. I have seen many changes in me and other
PWS who are regular.
I wanted to say Dinesh words which he told me at first “Just come for 3 months
regularly and you can see the change”. And I am also pretty sure you would see
the changes in your own.
the leadership in his eyes I can see the confidence and his skills are
improving. He is really doing well and inspires others. I was talking on the
gmail. And I asked him
“ Hey Man , I can see many changes in you”.
Abhinav : Ya man it’s the effect of
leadership, you have to take-care of others because every persons need
is different. You have to be much knowledgeable.
inspire me and give me motivation. Sudden thought came “ I am the leader of my
own”. Because every time I gave my button to others hand. Means by example : I
am the fan and some buddy is drive me on and off.
Why should I listen to others and why should I not accept me.
accepting myself. If I stammer in the shop or in the bus or at office or
anywhere. I am not thinking of anything. If some buddy smiles I say inside let
it be. I learned one thing accept yourself and things will start changing.
you on earth for some purpose. You’re unique and no buddies like you in this
planet. So love yourself whatever you’re.
grammatical mistakes or spelling mistakes sorry for that because English is my
second language and I am learning English these days. My next post will be
Akash Dixit a PWS