Life is a roller-coaster ride, they say. So is it, for me. Heaving up in joy on days of “easy talk” and tumbling down in anguish on days of “blocked talk”. Life!
Right now, I am in a period of relapse. After progress made with tireless toil, I am sliding down. The quiver of lips is uncontrolled, body jerks are pronounced, palms cover up the mouth to hide the shame. Words don’t flow. Work is not getting done. Despair!
I know this is a passing phase. The emotional turmoil I have drowned myself in is taking is toll. With time the mind will calm itself and I will start making progress again. I just need to bide my time. Survive!
This constant search within for answers reveal insights of my true nature, and guess what? It’s no different from my perceptions of others. I hide behind a false facade of cheerfulness. So must the others, right? Each devoured by their own demons. Ah! Only if people could read between the lines. Empathy!
Binu Gopalakrishna, Coorg, Karnataka