Life is a roller-coaster ride, they say. So is it, for me. Heaving up in joy on days of “easy talk” and tumbling down in anguish on days of “blocked talk”. Life!
Right now, I am in a period of relapse. After progress made with tireless toil, I am sliding down. The quiver of lips is uncontrolled, body jerks are pronounced, palms cover up the mouth to hide the shame. Words don’t flow. Work is not getting done. Despair!
I know this is a passing phase. The emotional turmoil I have drowned myself in is taking is toll. With time the mind will calm itself and I will start making progress again. I just need to bide my time. Survive!
This constant search within for answers reveal insights of my true nature, and guess what? It’s no different from my perceptions of others. I hide behind a false facade of cheerfulness. So must the others, right? Each devoured by their own demons. Ah! Only if people could read between the lines. Empathy!
Written By~
Binu Gopalakrishna, Coorg, Karnataka
2 thoughts on “Tumbling Down a Relapse Slide…”
Sachin
(April 12, 2017 - 7:23 pm)Yes, someday are diamonds, someday are stones…
Accepting this fact (the way we accept, ebb and tide in the ocean)- and carrying on, is what life is all about- what Acceptance is all about..
Let me please quote the lyrics of the song, which I have quoted above:
Some days are diamonds some days are stones
Sometimes the hard times won’t leave me alone
Sometimes a cold wind blows a chill in my bones
Some days are diamonds some days are stones..
Best,
Sachin
(April 12, 2017 - 7:25 pm)We all live next to this beautiful ocean…